12.24
often feel tired these days.
yet feel have more time.
but how can time be turned into outcomes in high efficiency, it is still a big problem.
with so much work on hand, still feel little interested in finishing them, but i have to do, and i know i will.
i made a lot of plans. doing this while doing that, balabala. so what...
my phone shut down for like two days. and when i finally turned it on, there was only one call and one text message from my superior, for some work.
and some messages from u.
i get used to having it within my hand reach so much, but when i had to leave it, it felt like, okay, thats it.
i knew there might not be so much trouble, and it of course had some influence for this kind of feeling. but sometimes when i think of this problem, i get confused.
my phone is okay now, im so glad. welcome back, u little guy.
and even with so many things, i think im willing to get used to u.
not just u.

12.15
i used to think that dec was very far from me, and today is the middle of dec.
......i mean, already middle of dec.
are u kidding me?! what have i done in all these days?
idk... and i find this seems familiar.
i ate some cookies, shaped like the chessboard. if u were here, i will spare half of it for u~ not so bad. but it was seen by other guys, and u know what will happen next. :(
so cold outside...... i can feel my hand stiffed by this chilly air. but still, im delighted to write sth, and just chat with u in some daily ways. even i havent writen for a long time.
again, a deadline is nearer and nearer. i decide to do it earlier!
am i better than i was? :3

ok, so at last i did do some work before i go to sleep.
and seriously, how many hours have i slept in the daytime?!
what happen to that old plan which says sleep and get up early?!
well, its already tomorrow, and i guess i couldnt count on myself to get up too early in the morning......
but i will try not to get up too late, after all the day after tomorrow is deadline. I WILL!!
dont surf the internet fot too long, promise me......

算啦，不写英文了。
好像一不舒服就会变得更加矫情而多愁善感，开始想天想地，然后又想着这样的想法有什么意思嘛。
嘘，你可别总这样懒了，听到了吗？
A new week begins.

近来常觉得人生虚妄，渐有些看不得一些伤心文字。每日每日劳劳碌碌，又觉得自己心态不是很对，又觉得没什么改进的动力。天天指着一些几率，生活中又是一些routine又有着不确定性。不知是否与近日生活有关，经常觉得很多时候不敢细想，只好赶着催着去做这做那。但与你的交谈总不会令人厌倦，纵不是大笑狂喜，亦觉心情平静，好像多吸了几大口空气，然后继续埋头于这样那样的琐事。所以，怎样都总该先说声谢谢。谢谢，傻汤。

有时候也会觉得我的情敌太多，总有人能为你做这样那样的事，心情颇有些复杂呢，笑。可是也喜欢你被众人喜欢着，自睥睨高举，做你高冷疏狂的男神。虽然近些时候仿佛觉得你有往男神经病发展的趋势。。。但是没关系哟，随便你怎样，我都喜欢，都觉得可爱。因为你是我的傻汤呀。

很高兴你逐渐向我袒露更多，就像一碗汤底下积着的枸杞鸡骨或是冬瓜海带（？）我反应很慢的，所以请一定继续保持！所遗憾者，自己常恨口拙舌笨，总不知怎样才能让你更开心。但是看你惯常活得洒脱恣意，自己也便觉得愉快。吐槽也好，烦恼也好，表情包也好，神一般的p图也好。尤其自己最近总不是那么兴致高昂，看你玩得开心也总是一种慰藉。

我有时候对自己要求堪称严苛，有时候又对自己放纵得可怕。似乎不像个极端的人，却总对你偶尔一些不愉快紧张得不行。所幸这样的时刻不多，所幸你渐更愿意向我表达自我，我又高兴，又忍不住捂脸。傻汤汤啊，快教教我，你不高兴的时候，怎么哄你能比较有成效呢？别太难，我这方面总是不太擅长，你知道的。

今天的说说够醒目够直白吧？噗。其实我一向不是这么直白的风格。但要是傻汤看到了能高兴个一点点，或者哪怕少不高兴一点点，都是好的。我的傻汤有辣么厉害，又会拍照，又会p图，又会做表情包，不会的对个教程都能做出叫人不明觉厉的东西来。。。请继续张扬恣意地生活吧！你曾说，我有时候太过“良民”，那就连我的份儿一起张扬起来？我们是两条并行的河流，你的风景也是我的风景。又是一年过去了，雄心壮志要跟那些个认识你辣么久的人比时间的话，却还有好长。便不比了也罢，我们就这般，踏踏实实地过一年是一年。一年有一年的回忆，一年有一年的滋味。新年里该是有对我们对十分重要的事吧，愿我们互相勉励，都能慢慢过上更好的人生。这样的话，等我们老了，该有更多自由和资本来一起挥霍了吧，笑。啊，想一想还觉得挺期待呢。你呢？

如果要算祝福的心意，好阵子之前就在心里惦记着了，也不知有没有累你打几个喷嚏。生日快乐，傻汤。新的一年，继续一起前行吧-3-